You Gotta Want That Shit!

You know it's too easy to say you want to do something. Anyone can say "I want".

I want to graduate from College.

I want to be with the love of my life.

I want to have a job I love.

I want to lose weight.

I want to follow my dreams.

I want.

Anyone can say it.

But you REALLY have to want it to actually DO it.

I can proudly say that everything I have ever wanted to do thus far, I have done and nobody has stopped me from doing it. It's all because one day, I finally woke up and I realized that absolutely nobody is standing in the way of what I want to do, but me.

You are the only person standing in the way of what you want to achieve. All it takes is confidence. And finding it is all up to you. You have nobody to blame but yourself. You can't blame anyone, but the person staring at you in the mirror in the morning.

There is not a single person in this world who can tell me that I am not good enough, not strong enough, or not smart enough. There is nobody who can say I can't do something, I'm not awesome, I'm not beautiful, and that I'm not powerful. I know I am all these things and more.

I've never been beaten down by anyone because I have never allowed it. I still don't allow it. Those who try to bring me down and don't succeed only find themselves upset that they can't. Sometimes they get so frustrated, they decide to walk away.

Maybe that came from my upbringing. My father worked very hard for us. We didn't have a lot, but my parents made the most of what we did have. My father tried his damnedest to give us a sense of ethics. I'm not sure much of what he tried to teach us stuck with any of us.

I see a little bit of it my baby brother and a bunch of it in myself. I got a lot of his craziness. The type A personality, the OCD tendencies...and the horrible skin. I was always a go-getter, even if I didn't always know what I was going out there to get. I just wanted to do it just to say that I did and if you dared tell me that I couldn't do it, it was all the more reason for me to go out there and try.

I'm a nutcase. I know I am. I'm insecure, attention seeking, and extremely hard to handle. But if you can handle me, you know that really do I mean well and that I am always looking out for what is best for the people in my life.

I want the people that I love to succeed. I want them to stop making excuses for not doing things. I want them to stop feeling sorry for themselves. I want them to take their lives and do what they want with them. I want them to stop allowing themselves to be treated like crap when I believe they are gold. I want the people I love to love themselves.

Stop being afraid.